Hey… it’s me. Anna
Pull up a chair. Because today? Yeah… it was one of those days.
Morning check-in (or lack of it)
I woke up stiff.
Not the cute “I need to stretch” stiff.
The “why does everything hurt before I even move” kind.
Back. Knees. Shoulders. Hands doing that numb thing again like they forgot we have responsibilities.
And I already knew…
it was going to be a long day.
Back to the trash life
More heavy trash.
Because apparently the universe said,
“You handled yesterday? Cool. Let’s do it again.”
Same situation:
- heavy bags
- stairs
- joints filing complaints
My body wasn’t in the mood.
And honestly? Neither was my mind.
Mentally… I wasn’t okay today
I’m going to be real with you.
Today wasn’t just physical.
I felt down.
Like that quiet, heavy kind of down that just sits with you.
I missed my mom.
I missed my dad.
I missed my sister.
Just… home.
The kind of missing that hits you in the middle of your shift when you’re carrying something heavy and suddenly your chest feels heavier too.
Life said “good news… bad news”
Got some news today.
The kind where you’re like:
“Okay… that could be good.”
and then immediately
“Yeah… but at what cost?”
My situation might be changing soon.
Which is good.
But… my money situation might take a hit.
Which is not good.
So now I’m here, somewhere in the middle, trying to figure out what the right move is.
So yeah… I’m taking a leap
Because something has to shift.
I can’t keep doing everything the same and expect my body (or my life) to magically cooperate.
So I’m going to take a leap of faith.
Not because I’m fearless.
Because I’m tired.
And sometimes tired people make the bravest decisions.
Let’s talk about the attitude part
Living with pain?
It makes you grumpy.
Like… involuntarily.
Some days you catch it early:
“Okay, you’re snapping… fix it.”
Other days?
It gets away from you.
And you’re halfway through the day like:
“Why am I irritated at everything?”
Then you remember:
Oh. Right.
Everything hurts.
Tomorrow… yeah, about that
I work alone tomorrow.
Which means:
- more work
- more lifting
- more stairs
- more “why is this my life” moments
So tonight is less about relaxing and more about mentally preparing.
My mantra right now
“This is for you, mom.”
That’s it.
That’s the thing that gets me up.
That’s the thing that pushes me through when my body is like:
“Let’s not.”
Because at the end of the day…
I’m doing this for something bigger than just getting through a shift.
Small win (because we take those)
I’m off Thursday and Friday.
And listen… I’m holding onto that like it’s a prize.
Because right now, that little break?
Feels like everything.
From someone tired but still trying
Today wasn’t easy.
Physically. Mentally. Emotionally.
But I got through it.
Not gracefully. Not perfectly.
But I did.
And sometimes?
That’s enough.
If you’re having one of those days too…
I see you.
Because I’m right here in it with you.
Alright… I’m going to sit down and not move for a while.
Catch you next time.
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